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YES! i finally signed up as a volunteer for the house rabbit society singapore (hrss)! i've finally gotten over the fact that i'm short of time, this and that reason, and finally signed up for it! :D okay, but i wouldn't have got the urge to sign up if it wasn't for cip purpose. but, signing up as a volunteer now wouldn't make much difference to my cip hours cos the deadline's coming up and seriously, as long as i play my part, who cares whether it's recorded or not in my cockpit data. my house just isn't working fine at all. in the early stages, there were just too many self invited visitors (aka lizards). now, my big dont-know-how-many-inch teevee gone cranky and my small black box exploded yesterday. so much for having two teevees at home and yet i can't watch any programmes at all. i'm totally losing out on the nice programmes man! (if there is any, in the first place). also, my comps are getting really cranky too. aiya, everything in the entire house is not right! if there's any place in singapore that i really don't want to go a second time, i think it has to be night safari. maybe we went too late, maybe we went at the wrong time. GOSH! the animals were horrible. it was so dark, and they just refused to come out into the brighter areas for us to stare and look at, and some even went hiding into the dark spaces! so much for a night safari, totally fits the bill. maybe we were just tired, but seriously, it was really boring for me that i got so disheartened and slept on the tram ride! and i think i was sleeping really soundly cos my dad had to like push me, and i couldn't really hear him too. and i've just been booked a date to the zoo! totally looking forward to seeing the adorable bunnies :D Signed, 6:12 a.m.
i'm back from japan. to my surprise, so many people actually knew i went away. some gave me the "where's my present" signal, and i got the signal! well, even without those signals, i think i secretly have enough little gifts to go around for everyone. things in japan is really little and expensive and well, i finally experienced what it was like to live in a place where costs of living is really, really high. seeing is believing. taking a cab in singapore is really so, so, so much cheaper than in japan. cab fare starts from 660 yen, which is about S$6.60 and when we took a cab from minowa to narita airport, gosh! it was a freaking 23,000 yen! which is equivalent to about S$300 when you convert it back. THREE HUNDRED BUCKS! and it's only for cab fare. but still, i really like japan a lot. the air there, though very cold, but felt very warm when you see really nice people on the road, of whom you can ask for help, and those really friendly and helpful people. though it was only a short four days trip, it felt like ten days of experience, from dragging four luggages on the first day, to twenty-one (!!!) luggages cum hand-carry bags cum plastic bags on the way to airport, oh boy, it was really an experience trying to flag for a cab that's willing to take us and the many luggages (and we had to split the luggages into two, one portion to take cab, the other to take the subway), and was nearly late for check-in time! i nearly couldn't make it back on time to singapore! but there wasn't this anxiety and worry in me because i kinda dread that last-day to come, when i'm still in holiday mood, enjoying my time in really-nice japan :D reality kicks in, and reached singapore at 3am yesterday morning. it was like wow, amazing and surprising that i actually had the energy to drag myself out of bed, to report on time for school! well, i nearly couldn't make it alive for school, thanks to the speeding vehicle that i was in. and really, if it wasn't for class photo taking, i wouldn't have gone to school! i couldn't stay awake during lectures and luckily there wasn't tutorials in the morning! and today, i really couldn't get myself out of bed. i felt so drained and couldn't even hear my phone ring or beep! and i spent my whole morning folding clothes (again) and hearing my whole house filled with screams and shouts, and we were only doing spring cleaning (though it's not chinese new year) and lizards were found, quarrels were created. OH WELL. someone broke a piece of news to me. i wasn't exactly shocked nor sad, but anyway, sajcband did not get into presentation night. the event that most of us are awaiting for, the event that most of us are looking forward. finally, it has been quite settled that our band journeys have finally ended. when she told me about the results and how she knew about it, she was filled with disappointment and disgust. i didn't feel that way, until i was brought back to the times we shared and spent together, the "happy times".. were they reality or illusion? it was not only disappointment and disgust that i felt, it was only shame and more shame, i told her. it wasn't presentation night that made us feel the way we did. it was how we were told the news, how outdated we were since it was already a day when the band knows about it. and to our surprise, there were still many people who doesn't know about it. the surprise wasn't as strong as the disappointment that we get. i really, really want to shout out loud how much i feel about it, but does it matter to anyone of them? it's high time for reflections, not only for us, but for them as well. my reflections on them would just have to be, i've matured so much on my thinking and thoughts and i really learnt how hypocritical is the world, where people can turn their back on you, backstab you right in your face with their comments filled with sarcasm and mockery, in a matter of a few days. well, though we didn't get into presentation night, i would say it's a great relief for me, in all aspect. now i can focus on studying and getting As, though i still very much want to perform together with the j1 band during "limelight", and it's finally a getaway from the full-force hypocrisy, the heartrenching segregation and every little single thing that made me break into pieces, and even up to the day before may eleventh. but i did it for the people i love, i did it for the band. i am fortunate enough, to have people with so much concern for me, that this concern overwrites the hypocrisy that i had to face. i grew stronger, i grew tougher, i grew more mature, and i grew to love this band more. if i ever get the chance, even if it means to spoil this so called bond that we used to share, i would shout it out, right in your face, how much you disgusted me, how much disappointment you brought to me, how much agony i had to face because of the treatment you gave me, how much you don't deserve the credits that people gave you because you totally don't deserve it. the thing that i once so loved, i'm beginning to hate it all because of you. scgs percussion, my only love. despite being so old, it brings me only joy and amusement whenever i go back to visit. i remember visting the monday before i left for japan, and it really made my day so bright. it was a last minute decision that i made, to go back to sc to return those bamboo mallets that i borrowed for syf, but it was a great decision that i made that day. i opened the door, heard mr yap singing. memories of scband life flashed back and i really miss those days. despite not being very well liked in this current band (cos i scolded them really badly the other time), my section is still there, not hating me, not minding my presence. i heard them play, and i'm really proud of them. open house performance was a total big regret that i have. i couldn't make it for that performance cos i was in japan, and i remember promising myself to make it for every performance that they have. i failed myself. but i'm so glad that scband's having their concert soon. regardless if i've a paper on that day, or whether i'm having exams during that period, i will go, no matter what. Signed, 2:20 p.m.
i'm flying off to japan tonight! yay, getting pretty excited about it cos japan is like a country where i always wanted to go, despite being cash-less. BUT YES! JAPAN, HERE I COME! seriously dont ask why i'm suddenly going on holiday, and it's really holiday, not like i'm on a secret mission. japan japan japan japan japan japan japan japan japan. i think yanny's super jealous of me, but well, she'll never come across her, so.. anyway, signing off! tata peeps! :D Signed, 12:14 a.m.
GOLD WITH HONOURS! i believe everyone has heard about it already, but nevertheless, it is a piece of news that will stay deep in our memories, regardless of how many times it has been repeated. from a transition of a silver, to a gold, and now an honours, my band journey has finally ended on a high note. the results of this syf for me didnt come unexpectedly or expectedly, it just symbolizes a recognition for all our effort. but regardless whether only a certificate of participation, or bronze or silver or gold, it was the journey of preparation that made me feel the most. the results really didn't matter much, and for that matter, i didnt tear at all when i heard the results. didn't at all. i love this band, many many. it wasn't by chance, it wasn't miracle that we happened to get the honours award. it was the effort of everyone, it was the hardwork that everyone put in that brought us where we are today. it wasn't just us, the musicians, but also the work of our conductors, our teachers and alumni. he doesn't make miracles, but he brings us through a marvelous journey of learning how to make music come alive, and perhaps how to make miracles come true. it may seem contradicting, ironic or whatever, but really, it was a miracle that we improved tremendously within a short period of four days! i remembered how our first syf soundcheck really suck so badly. i remembered how the second one wasn't that good either. and the last one, everyone was just so drained. it was really not a very good experience, with all that cursing and swearing about ourselves, and having to hear how sucky we sounded. it was a heartache. for the past eight months, rhapsody was the piece that we've been constantly in contact with. it's also the piece that brought us glory, the piece that became our pride and made us stand out among the rest. i am proud of this band because we've come such a long way, and we have succeeded in overcoming our ownselves and fighting with ourselves. sajc concert band, we did it!! :D quote dictionary.com, overwhelm means, to overcome completely in mind or feeling. that's what everyone is feeling now! :D always love sajcband! :D  well, it's not the full syf band, but it represents something. Signed, 4:42 p.m.
one more day! though i'm not a believer of anything, i pray for strength and perseverance for everyone, to go through, to savour, to enjoy every moment that we have left. time may seem running short and everything is not perfect yet, but, nothing is perfect in this world. syf is merely a day away. i pray for focus and concentration of the band, so that we can glue our eyes to mr glosz and give him every bit of our attention. we know what we can achieve, so i pray that everything will fall right in place properly and cohesively, to prove our worth, to present the wonderful and marvelous piece that we've been working on since october or so last year. how many bands will actually start practising and rehearsing their syf piece eight months back? only us. we're not complacent, we know our strengths, we know our work, we know our parts, we know our piece. so i pray that we'll have the confidence and faith in ourselves, to show off how much we want the best for the band, for our batchmates, for our sectionmates, for our teachers in charge and for ourselves. all for us. one for all, all for one. Signed, 11:38 p.m.
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