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i am worried, over many things. there's promos to take care of, there're juniors whom i want to help, and there's so many things to be done the moment promos end. but i don't want to wish that promos will end soon because i'm not certain that i'll do well if the paper's tomorrow. done with gp paper, which was awfully screwed up. no points for compo, compre was a total flop and now, i've less than a week to prepare for chem, econs and math (and i think i just conveniently forget about physics). 03/10: chem and econs. 05/10: math 06/10: physics. that's all the papers that i'll be sitting for. and that's all the papers which determines my fate. blablah. yes, i will now go and concentrate on my revision for the damn papers. Signed, 9:10 p.m.
the air feels cold, the sky looked dark. but it was still luminous. the sun tried to peer through the silver lining sky, there was a slight faint of the sunlight. light heartedly, i walked through the breezing cool air in the morning. it felt good and refreshing. in the afternoon, the sun was sorching. it was hot, burning and humid. it felt disgusting. it was like an omen. an omen of uncertainty and disaster. was that omen going to come true? the math totally killed me today. it was just yesterday when i felt so much for math, like the interest for it was coming back again. but today's test.. it was disastrous. it killed my confidence and my mood for the rest of the day. is there really still time to prepare for promos? depression; i think i'm experiencing it now. Signed, 5:47 p.m.
i know i said i won't update alr but there's so much that's happening that i want to say. TODAY, i saw a super cute baby boy!! Signed, 9:44 p.m.
i think i'm gonna leave this alone till after promos. don't have much a choice cos before promos, life will probably and be the same. nothing except studying. how annoying. i'm getting sick of school. they should just allow all of us to take study leave and stay home to study, rather than going to school, wasting time on lessons like pe and gp and pw and other nonsense classes. blablah. i feel lost. there's so much to do but nothing has been done. you xin wu li. yadayada. and mom's threatening me to get promoted. i quibbled with her and asked for encouragement and she said that was encouragement. blablah. that was more like a threat. nonsense. alright, so long, farewell. BYE! Signed, 7:16 p.m.
it was another two hours of chem consultation, plus another two hours of hanging around at the chicken rice shop. how random. we came up with this plan to totally outcast bernice, for that sentence that she said. we are not from nunnery okay, bernice hohoho. i hope she sneezes while im talking about her, then she'll know the consequences of calling us the people of the nunnery. rarrr! so we're on and for the new creation of this blog called, the-different-frequency-people-from-bernice-hohoho.blogspot.com. we reserve that copyright, and no one else will create such blog except us. i'm warning those who're reading. we're the monopoly of that blog. 5:45pm i feel happy again today. updated scband web a little, added sections that will probably make the new bandits feel belonged. okay, i'm sorry for copying the bandit name list from another site, and i'm sorry to say that, i don't really like the asteriks and double of those to represent posts and sls. i think i used to do that in the previous layout, but now, i think it look too much like a power struggle. i don't want scband to turn too political. i hate politics. if everyone just stops the whole leaders being the most high ranked thing, then scband will probably improve alot, i hope. meh. blablah. now my only past time is studying. Signed, 4:25 p.m.
i feel so accomplished, really. although i woke up pretty late at ten plus today, i managed to attempt the math holiday assignment! i can now say that, i've revised partial fractions & binomial series, mathematical induction, differentiation & applications and maclaurin's series!!!!! it just makes me so happy to feel the interest for math all over again. i'm so gonna attempt the rest of the questions later so that i've something to show mr kooooooo tomorrow during consultation. but wait, he hasn't even agreed about having consultations yet! utterly disgusting! attempt to finish these by tonight: 1. math revision package 2. chem past year papers 2003-2005 blah, it looks so few. but i doubt i'll have time to finish them anyways. i think there's only one website which is on my frequently visit website list now. and that is the sajcmoodle. utterly disgusting. all of the sudden, i've lost the slacker in me, proceeding on to be a mugger, somewhat like jooyeow. eeyer. i don't want to be a mugger. utterly disgusting. but then again, i hate the feeling about getting retained. and really, if i were to get retained (how unfortunately), then i will just proceed to poly. i know there'll be things in jc that i will miss badly, but neither do i want to stay on and be ridiculed for being lazy and ultimately land myself in another batch. i really don't want. so therefore, getting promoted will be my main motivation to work hard. "our brightest blazes of gladness are commonly kindled by unexpected sparks" i like this. Signed, 7:03 p.m.
i wanted to tell about how my eye become sore, all thanks to bernice and hweemin. it all came about when the both were flirting with each other, just beside me. and i had to tell the rest i had to protect myself in case i get sore eye. and tadaa! the next day i had a sore left eye. this is really unfortunate. i remember telling bernice on sat, she started laughing. i told my mom yesterday that i wanted to see a doctor, she started laughing and she presumed that i saw dirty things. then bryan was around, and he started laughing too. so the whole world starts laughing cos i've sore eye, and all thanks to bernice. blablah. ps kailing, i warned you about this. there was econs lecture and econs remedial today. it was a total of 3.5hours and it was totally energy draining. after which, kailing and i went to macs to have a small meal before meeting yishiuan for lunch. we bought like medium fries and took lots of different sauces. but today wasn't exactly that many, as compared to the other day when we took like all the sauces. that's so singaporean. so all in all, after lunch, kailing decided to accompany me to the opposite-ascension-kindergarten busstop to take bus. so after i crossed that small stretch of road to the sajs side, i turned around, only to find kailing nowhere. i literally jumped. then i found kailing still on the other side of the road. HAHAHAHAHA. okay, i think i'm amusing myself only. but it was funny and i know she was utterly embarrassed too. wahahahaha x) didn't study at all after i came home. just spent time roaming around the house, munching on peanut crackers, eating almond longan. blablah. it's such an inefficient allocation of resources. blablah. econs is getting interesting. (i hope) Signed, 7:42 p.m.
while everyone else is perhaps mugging away, i've been slacking since that certain time. but at least i woke up a little earlier today. thank you, tamago, for studying with me at kap. i'm pretty sorry that i was late, as usual i know. but i will remember that i owe tamago an icecream treat for making her wait, actually for a while. ps tamago, please work hard yea! you're nearly there, so strive on! there's still a week left, work hard for your prelims and olevels okie! let's go out for more study sessions. i should be able to help you for olevels, if you need any help :) work hard together! :D had a great "hahahahahahahahahahahahahahahaha" laugh earlier. perhaps it worked a little of the stomach fats that i've got. one) enthalpy of reaction is the enthalpy change when molar quantities of reactants as stated in the chemical equation react to form products. two) enthalpy of formation is the enthalpy change when one mole of substance is formed from its elements in their standard states. these are the only two defintions i memorized today. not very progressive at all. blablah. i will study harder. i'm putting all my energy on math and chem. econs and physics; let's just pray hard. Signed, 10:01 p.m.
it's september already. happy teacher's day to all teachers! :D damn econs test. teachers should have the gut feeling that everyone was going to fail and not pass very well, but they insisted on having the test. i wished i could have just handed in a blank paper without wasting a drop of ink, but no i didn't. it'll be a miracle if i could get one mark for it. personally, i just wanna thank the teachers who made that significant impact on me. i'm really sorry i didn't prepare a small gift, or even a card. i felt so stupid this year. going back to sc again, it really made me feel like home. though i go back so frequently, every time the going back gives me a new, refresh feeling. a feeling of home, a feeling of where i belong, a feeling of a dream come true. sc is my second home, and that i know no where else can replace. i just miss going back to sc because i know that's a place where everyone can be themselves. finally met up with ahbu, which she has been bugging me about, and went out with her, sweegeok and wanyi. it was so enjoyable, for going with sc people, regardless whether you know them very well or not, is always that fun, that memorable. i knew i just randomly popped into their clique outing, but i knew i was appreciated there :) thank you, sweegeok, for that comment you told athena :D it meant a lot to me. and so, they didn't mind the presence of extra me and hence, i entertained them so much with my presence. on my part, i enjoyed entertaining them too! initial plan was to go pastamania at cine, but we went to ps instead for it was raining heavily, no way to get to cine without getting wet further. thank you, mr paul, for bringing over the supposedly heavy meh meh, that you claim you owe me and bought from sydney. and sorry for thinking it's a 3-in-1 thingy. i bet i was lucky i didn't catch a flu or something. but one thing, it made my cough worse. i wish i didn't have to know what actually people said. although i know, "ah, they're just joking", but somehow, it still has an impact on me. weak mentality, i would say myself. i know i'm easily hurt because i allow myself to be, so therefore i'll bear the whole responsibility that the impact has on me. maybe at certain point of times, i know i'm not wanted to be around and it was however unfortunate to having to see me around. whatever it is, i'll get over it. i hope. scgs concert band web. i started it from sratch, and i'm willing to let go to those who really have the heart to carry on with it. i don't want half-heartedness from people who just want to maintain at a spur of a moment. the scband web is my baby, and i'm not giving it to those who just wants to gain credit out of it, or just, like i said, who agreed on a spur of a moment. i'm only letting it go when i find a scband lover. she's my baby, not a responsibility. to those who wants to maintain the scband web, please love her like the way you love scband. sorry tamago that i flared on you. i think i took things too agitatedly. like i've said, when she comes and ask me initiatively, i will let her do it. hopefully our study session tmr will be a fruitful one :D i think i often speak words of no meaning, but i think when i do, i've probably lost my sanity due to my stupid way of living, and my stupid feelings. and that is probably when troubles come. oh, thank you, xueyan, for your beautiful fabric-painted handmade card! thank you, xuanyou wang (:p), for the hot pink, attention striking card! thank you, both, for the two bunny figurines! :D i don't know if they've replaced perky and gribbles's place in my heart, but they've definitely occupied another spot in me! thank you, athena ahbu, for the many many bunny clips and that bunny toy that i've seen at taka so many times but never bought. and also, the powerpoint presentation! though you've koped most of the photos from my photo album, i'll forgive you for that! :D but, i know i mean those words above, a lot. Signed, 7:14 p.m.
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