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concert is in about 6 days time. how fortunate. i cannot wait for the concert to come, neither do i want the concert to come. ticket sales isn't really good. about two hundred unsold tickets. i really wish more people will come for the concert, though it's only a few more spaces that can be filled up. this concert is a joint effort of the sa family of bands. it's hard work, just gathering the different bands to rehearse together and our only rehearsal at esplanade, was just plainly unsuccesful. but nevertheless, i'm sure the different bands are trying really hard to get their pieces done, and of course, the combine bands formed by the different bands are working really hard too. here's the full repertoire of "one family, one flag" concert. combine band one school hymn. college song. under one flag. st. andrews junior school (sajs) star wars. rock around the clock. sajs and sas sec one cosgrove. st. andrews school (sas) defying gravity. sas sec three and four in autumn skies. starships. sas sec three, four and sajc j-one flight of valor. copacabana. st. andrews junior college arsenal. animation medley. fantasy variations. sajc j-two and alumni band amazing grace. moulin rouge. alumni band at dawn they slept. animation medley from "howl's moving castle". riverdance. finale band sacred suite. basically, the concert will definitely be a good one, with the gold with honours bands like sas and sajc. when will there be a concert with about twenty pieces to perform and yet have its tickets sold at only twelve and twenty bucks at esplanade! frankly, this is the cheapest esplanade concert i'm ever present for and though i know my help to appeal to those who hasn't bought their tickets is limited, but still, every little help counts. i really hope on that night itself, 6th of Aug, Sunday, the concert hall will be a full house. that will definitely be a small wish of mine. nobody knows what's gonna happen next, but quote her, my passion for band is slowly disappearing. but nevetheless, this concert will be a 101% of my hardwork. Signed, 6:38 p.m.
in times of difficulties, who will be there to guide us along? in times of torment and hardships, who will be there to show us the way out? troubled and lost as can be, i think i need to find a leading path. busy schedule, tight schedule. there's so many things that's gonna happen tmr. i wish i could split myself into a few persons so that i can be at everywhere at the same time. i used to respect you, for the things you have done. but now, i do not know what exactly is going on, for you have found your new likes and beliefs that you've totally disintegrated the respect i have for you. perhaps i'm just jealous of what i do not have, but honestly speaking, i do not need all the attention you're offering someone else. i sense my days wasting away, slowly, with no aims or whatsoever to keep the flame burning. my greatest motivation now, is the esplanade concert, which i know, on the other hand, it will land me in deeper trouble. perhaps there is a decision to be made, soon enough. happy birthday, mr paul goh Signed, 10:58 p.m.
it was at five fifteen, on friday the 25th July 2003 at Victoria Concert Hall, with the piece, "Tales of the Sea" and "At Dawn They Slept" by Jay Bocook. i miss that performance at victoria concert hall. Signed, 3:26 p.m.
pe today was tiring, once again. they say i was so enthu during the game and yadayada. but i guess it's to really have a good game. this whole week is gonna be hectic. sectionals tmr, esplanade rehearsal on wed, probable combine prac on thurs and band prac cum miss soh's farewell on friday. hectic. but to make this whole sav band concert a success, i guess this is the only way out. today's combine sectionals with the sas peps, was cancelled at the very last moment. it would have been a much better practice session but.. oh wells. and random jooyeow thinks that there's something dirty going on. only have to say, "don't be stupid, jooyeow!" i think i've got quite a sum of radiation in my head after a terrible headache. it must have been the afternoon discussion, together with the loud volume. argh :( Signed, 9:15 p.m.
i'm being accused of something that has never happened before. it saddens me for the person who said it, was someone i used to be really good friends with. and now.. what is this term for such situation? the level of trust and faith has deteriorated and decreased tremendously. the closeness we used to share, has faded and diminished as the time and gap widens. i do not want to say it's over, but neither do i wanna continue holding on to this hope which you already gave up on. you choose to follow the route of what others walked, so you bear the consequences. do not blame others what they might have fault in, for causing the situation you landed yourself in. i'm letting go of everything. the stress is slowly mounting, bit by bit. what more can i do to help ease the stress of this marvelous group? i'm gonna spare some cash to help along the way. i hope people will have recommendations for me as to where to go for crash courses for the most difficult instrument. my main concern now, is my first esplanade concert. Signed, 7:35 p.m.
i slept from four pm yesterday afternoon til six am this morning. how lazy. but at least i felt hungry and woke up from eight to ten pm to eat dinner plus tv time. i always wanted to be sick so that i can stay at home to roam around. but when the germs and bacteria really comes to attack, waaaa. it's terrible. they come in a whole army and win victoriously. fever. cough. sore throat. all coming in an army format ): Signed, 10:33 p.m.
let it go, that's all i can say. it doesn't seem like everything's going the way i think it should, but just let it go. i think i need to find a new interest and get on with a life with minimum worries. oh gosh. he's really nice, that's what the both of us think. the world need more guys like him, then it'll be purrrfect. SAJC Band Concert venue Esplanade date 6th Aug 2006 time 7.30pm price 12$ and 20$ bands SA Junior, SA Secondary, SA Junior College and SA Alumni Repertoire: 1) Fantasy Variations 2) Moulin Rouge 3) Animation Medley 4) Arsenal 5) Amazing Grace 6) Flight of Valor 7) Copacabana the repertoire for the concert is not complete. can't really remember what're the other pieces etc but neverminds. this is more or less the repertoire. please support the SA Family of Bands! :D everything gets so busy until everyone gets so tired. there're so many committments but, what's the point of sacrificing so much? indeed, the joy derived is much greater than the hardships and torture. but those sadness brings about more psychological pain than any joy can erase. i think it's really time to stop sacrificing so much when there isn't this pure connection at all. i just need to learn how to let go and learn my lesson. Signed, 7:07 p.m.
i hate myself for being weak. of all times, it had to be around the same time as before. this is the second time alr. i'm not blaming anyone and trying to complain. all i know is that, i really hate myself for being so weak. no matter how many times i fell and get myself all puffed up till even contacts can't fit, i'll never learn my lesson. it's not once. it's twice already. i've made the decision to (surrender) and i'm regretting about it. this is so weak and i hate myself for being weak. i made a decisive decision and yet, i'm getting myself all hating myself over and over again. how many more times do i have to hate myself? i know i have the bestest friends on earth. i'm really sorry you have to hear all those crap that was blasting into your ears. but i know i still have you. me it is planned to show how weak i am. her you're not weak lah me it's planned for, like you said. her it's planned to show the best of your ability. Life can be cruel, and sometimes we're forced to abandon many things. that's life here, on earth. me and i know i still have you no matter what. her no matter what happens. i'll be here, always. a phone call away, just like you always say. ride over the crisis, and you'll be fine, as what ppl say, what's impt is not the outcome or the result, its the journey where you know you've worked hard. played hard, and strived for what you want. so i hope, when you're feeling low, go read the sms, and think of me cos, you know i'll always be there for you, as a listening ear, forever. and i know you will do the same for me. that's what worth remembering in life, it's something called, friendship. ahbu loves you. rmb this. =) always. and you too. you and your "JASMINE!" For all I've been blessed with in this life There was an emptiness in me I was imprisoned by the power of gold With one honest touch you set me free oh yes, i'm finally gonna fail my first math exam in my entire life. how happening. and if there is any subject i might kill myself for, for failing, it is math. oh heck, whatever i'm thinking about is bringing tears to my eyes. can't tear anymore. finally, it has stopped. this entry is blank. Signed, 10:25 p.m.
it was exactly a year ago, not at the same time but same date. my last concert with scband. i thought i could just let it go, and not really think about it often. i just simply miss those times when i love my band, my juniors and my section so much that just thinking about them every moment warms the heart. i miss having maddcap and there were twice in my entire life, till now. sadly, i know many people watch maddcap not for band, but for other performances by other art groups. but who cares about what're the others purpose for coming. deep down, the true people who come, will come. band wasn't a highlight in sc, perhaps now, it still isn't. but to us, who belong to this band, band is the highlight of our lives. maddcap was my last concert with scband and i just realised, it's also the last concert for my current sec four juniors. i miss having concerts, because all those preparation and piggin' out at the backstage room just made all the hardwork worth while. i just wish time is never so short. okay i bet she'll be damn paiseh if i post the entire chatlog on this entry but i thought it's just so sweet and nice :) ME i'm so happy that i can still communicate with my juniors :D like still connected in some way. HER haha. you come back quite frequently what. so your presence is still felt. and not forgotten. haha. ME but whenever i come back, no one speaks to me except my section juniorss. HINThint HER hahaha. i dont get the hint. you want the whole band to crowd round you and talk to you? hahaha. ME nahh. don't need the whole band. i just need my o-five recruits. HER actually section itself is very good already. you see when my section seniors come back, some of them i dont even know, and i've only seen them once. so in the end my seniors dont come back anymore, cause they know we dunno them. ME cos they rarely come back that's why. and they must be my seniors, so yepp. HER yeah thats why your section is still quite good. cause you know your sec1s right? ME cos i came back often during 1st 3 months, and bond with them. they were actually my purpose of coming back. and also the rest la. haha. HER you made the effort to come back, my seniors just poofed into thin air, never seen them other then jouhan once after the o's results ME i guess cos they're more attached to their new school now. im still living in post sc days. thats why im always coming back. i hope my o-five recruits will follow my enthu batch. hinthint HER your batch was just the good batch that remained bonded. ME i'm sure you all can be like us too. it doesn't matter if you all dont agree with one another and their way of doing, cos in my batch, we dont agree to what some others say also. but it's the common goal that will bring you girls together. and yadayada. the chat goes on. thank you, lynn, for talking to me about band stuff and make me recap on all the happy (or pissing) things we did and also, during our intensive footdrills and rubbish debrief and one-jasmine talking. i miss being in scband. Signed, 10:56 p.m.
i have two new friends. they're ap and gp :) but i haven't got to know them better yet, but hopefully before math paper on tues, i'll know them alot better. gp is a tough friend, it is so hard to comprehend and confusing. bleah. Signed, 12:23 p.m.
what summation. what matrices. what inequalities. what squence. what ap gp. what functions. what are all those. after that incident that night, i stored about five or six taxi hotlines in my phone. AND, they came in handy yesterday night! :) luckily i had those numbers. and i thought i'll get lost in midst of shenton way and chinatown. but fortunately i was really smart enough to catch the last train at the purple line and hopped onto the last train at the red line. phew. i think i really lost myself yesterday. i got so engrossed in texting then i nearly missed the newton stop and just hopped out of the cabin just in time when the woman said doors closing. twice, i nearly got caught in between those heavy doors. blabbering again. i'm going to study my favourite subject now, math. eeks. Signed, 1:06 p.m.
For all I've been blessed with in this life There was an emptiness in me I was imprisoned by the power of gold With one honest touch you set me free Let the world stop turning Let the sun stop burning Let them tell me love's not worth going through If it all falls apart I will know deep in my heart The only dream that mattered had come true In this life, I was loved by you For every mountain I have climbed And ever raging river crossed You were the treasure that I longed to find Without your love I would be lost Let the world stop turning Let the sun stop burning Let them tell me love's not worth going through If it all falls apart I will know deep in my heart The only dream that mattered had come true In this life, I was loved by you In this life, I was loved by you tuesday is coming! oh yay. it's boring to study math. Signed, 1:42 p.m.
the time now, is just pathetically one am. there's still approx of seven hours to the start of the important h2 econs paper. sometimes i just dread the feeling of after paper. like, after knowing you've got a million and one mistakes and have the bear minimum marks to pass. yadayada. perhaps after so many years of failing all sorts of tests and exams and papers, the feeling from failing is slowly disintegrating. failing is no longer something shameful, sad to say and maybe failing is one proud thing too! i will never not admit that i got 3/25 for math lecture test and 1/10 for econs essay and had to divide that mark by two cos it was late work. life like this, is actually, humourously, fun. it's how people change your sad life (with grades and what nots) into a big joke and you start fooling and hanging around with them and actually get out of that freaking sad life and laugh about it. life like this, is just marvelous. there is hope when you starting believing in miracles. quoted from jasmine, the greatest! i guess naive is the word. all the best for econs, whoever's taking econs in the next approx seven hours from now and can receive my telepathy! :D Signed, 1:09 a.m.
so far, the only thing i look forward to, is next tuesday. happy eighteen, eunice! Signed, 12:36 p.m.
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