someone persuade me what's so nice about the asian aerospace exhibition. why do guys love aeroplanes so much? i found it a chore and a trouble to look up into the sky, to watch the plane turn 180, 360, 90 left, 90 right.


and thanks to him, we've got ourselves into this fix. everyone's red and burnt now. i bet everyone's gonna start peeling tomorrow. he's got a red head and half red arm. HAHAHAHAHA. i'll see again when's the next time he's gonna suggest something again! hurrm. i've got red shoulder, red cheeks, red neck and red whatever.


i queued one plusplusplusplusplus hour to board this bus which took me to the airport runway. and it was pure retarded. there was this another queue just where i alighted from the bus and it sorta told me that i'd have to queue for another long time to board the similar bus to get back to the main checkpoint. and i only stayed at the runway for like barely ten mins. it was such a waste of time.


and what i learnt from this whole experience, buy sunblock lotion and use it. argh.


i was reading my past entries that i printed out the other time last night before i slept. i realised my way of typing last time was really funny and entertaining. now it's more like, blabbering nonstop and commenting on rubbish issues. i love my past entries! :)


peace made me do this negative johari window for her. it's a total opposite of the johari window and it's called nohari window. haha it is very funny, like what bad points do you have in other people's pov. i think it's quite funny so i thought, since i already have the johari one, so i might as well just have a nohari one! so i'll know what bad points i have. ooh ahh. haha. i guess these sort of windows are just purely for entertainment and it certainly achieved that point in my context! :)


dance like you've never fall before.

sing like it's your own concert.

love like you've never been hurt before.

live life like it's the last day.


though i didn't like the asian aerospace exhibition, i could see why people love those planes so much. those planes were magnificent and grand. even that plane that the singapore airlines is gonna use. is it A380? it's like huge but it went really slow when hovering above our heads. it was really really spastically slow, as compared to the other planes, which went shooooooosh. gone. hahaha. twentytwo bucks was how much my ticket cost and it was really not worth it for me to go. bored to tears and burnt to redness.


they say it's the last one in singapore. but if this exhibition is coming back again, like miraculously, i will never go again. i don't wana end up red and burnt again. x_x

i realised i've got too many activities lined up this week and months ahead. but it's all getting me hyped up and excited. planned and planning activities are tiring and i guess appreciating those efforts would make the day brighter! :)


this place, i guess, is where people get info from. info for all sorts of events, things and happenings. but it kinda scares me for i do not know who are the people reading this.


sometimes, it makes me ponder on the hypocritical side of people. and why do people have two sides? it's such a chore having to face hypocrisy and sometimes, it makes me doubt the person in front of me.


it's tiring to doubt people and perhaps we should just treat others with respect and manners. also with, sincerity courage generosity service prudence perseverance grace diligence. this is the sc spirit and sc motto and sc everything. mrsquek also taught us, we will walk in love and humility today.


i have my doubts towards the people i meet. i have my doubts towards the people i talk to. i have my doubts towards the simplest things that happen everyday. i still have my doubts..


treating people with respect, i guess it's the most basic foundation everyone should do. do others treat their friends with respect as well? probably it pays to text your good friend every morning, wish that they have a good day ahead and have a blessed day in school or at work. perhaps it pays to even ask if they had a pleasant day at school or work. or it probably means alot to receive a call like each week or something, to show that someone actually matters. or even tagging will mean alot.


plans for three weeks ahead. one; probably ogouting next week. two; movie with claras and siyuan next week. three; fourcourage05 diner next week. four; orientation. five; school holiday. six; hopefully perc section outing? seven; hollaback crew competition. eight; school reopen. this is plans for just three weeks. how hectic and tiring. energy drained.


hao lei hao lei le. wei she me bu hui gai de ren shi ni? yi zhi zhe yang xia qu, wo de ming hui cut short hen duo. bu yao fan wo le.


my main focus now is to promote the kedah trip to seniors! SUPPORT YOUR JUNIORS, SCBAND-AGES!! :)

OVERSEAS BAND TRIP TO TWIN SCHOOL IN MSIA KEDAH! IT'S FROM 3RD TO 9TH JUNE! anyone interested, leave a tag okie.


and anyways, i am not getting any commission from promoting this kedah trip. i just want everyone of us, scbandages from many many many years back, to join scband in their journey there! they'll be having a public concert and an exchange with some school. c'mon! scbandages show the scband you love them! woohoo.


okay i'm getting all so hyped up not only because of this whole kedah trip thing. according to mrjeow, mrdeans, sc's complab tech composed this hip hop tune for the recently promoted hollabackcrew competition by 98.FM. and mrdeans wants a group of percussionists, trombonist and trumpeters to join the big group. this is what i call bond. like even though i already graduated and promoted to band-age, but the bond is still there! like, no matter what happens in band, or if juniors need help, they'll always ask the seniors. this is what i loveeeee about this band. and i bet it's something jcbands cannot give me :) i'm so proud of my scband!


so all seniors from afar, please come come for kedah trip. to be abit paiseh to say, we've haven't had an overseas trip since 1992 and this time, though it's just m'sia, it'll be an exciting trip cause it's mountainous area and msheng is probably coming along with us! woohoo :) alright, she's really old now, probably near seventy and she's probably coming along with us too! and it's like gonna be how close up with msheng!! ahhhh. msheng rox. and we're the only ones who're gona be so privileged to get near and close up with her! woohoo! okay. i have this whole list of reasons why seniors should go for the trip, so for more details, ask me! :D


omg i'm getting excessively high over this two issues. and just like a few-ty hours back, i was just so demoralised and sad. and this tells me that i cannot be sad for long. how strange. too high to be true. the royal highness is back! :D

i feel extraordinary. and it's because everyone's going to school. it feels a bit strange to stay at home all day but i guess there is no turning back.


to give and to take; to sacrifice and to receive. in which stand do people always give and sacrifice more than take and receive? and why do people always give and sacrifice more than other people? is it wrong to give and sacrifice more when people don't even appreciate the kindness offered?


so wrong, out of place and unappreciated. maybe things shouldn't be taken so seriously after all.


i don't get what everyone means. i don't understand all the underline thoughts. i don't see in between lines or speech. i don't get everything but i have to pretend i understand it all. who understands how things work after all? who knows what lies ahead of us? who can tell me, why is it so hard to maintain things?


ahhh. my brain has rusted from not studying for so long. and if there is a test when school reopens, i'd probably fail that test. rarrrr. and i realised that in order to get into the hall of fame for sutek'stomb, i've gotta have at least 15,000+++++++ points and that probably make me play that game for one hour straight. how taxing. and xuan says she wants to challenge me. she also warned me not to play neopets for too long in case i look like one of the neopets. (alright PRINCiSS, don't have to remind me what i will look like!) then i was thinking, so what did xueyan and xuan looked like nearly a year ago, when they were intensively obsessed over neopets.

i woke at a really shocking and unexpected time today- eleven plus. i woke up, to my dismay, my brother was already having lunch, preparing to go to school. argh. how screwed. in the end, i did not go to the gym. nor to brasbasah library and only set out from home at threeplus to orchard to roam around like some restless soul.


someone please tell me what is final destination all about!


and i've decided. to begin my queenie life, i shall resume my high tea sessions! and play neopets the whole day. or perhaps find myself a job, any random job on classifieds, then slog till school officially starts for me.


omg there's this new gelato icecream shop at shawhouse! and they're looking for full/part timers! ooh ha. maybe i should go for interview and start serving people gelato icecream! omg. my dreamm.


maybe i should really start planning my career and future. haha. i wanna open this icecream cafe where friends or old friends or long-time-no-see friends come by and have icecream and coffee and chitchat till the cafe closes! and the cafe service is superduper good that everyone comes but there won't be any chain of outlets or anything. there'll just be one cafe and let's see. holland v would be a good place. or perhaps just come corner of a kopitiam! okay maybe not kopitiam. but aiya. i want my cafe. then the cafe will be well known. something like mac cafe but there'll only be one outlet :D okay i rather it not be mac cafe. i went to mac cafe twice and both times are really tramautising :(


i want a nike bag too! :(

i feel sick. and i am ill. jasmine is sick and she's so tired of fighting the flu bug. coughcough.


i shall plan my itinery for tomorrow. yaye. i shall go to the gym in the morning to workout. then next stop will be the library and i shall be really really studious. i shall go look up on my career and then go pig out at some cafe, have some pre training for taitai life. okay i don't wana be a taitai. alright, erm. pre training for queen life. heh. i wanted to say princess life, then i'm suddenly strucked by the PRINCiSS idea! gasps. hahahahaha. but i must thank the PRINCiSS. she gave me a motivational talk yesterday. PRINCiSS's quote for the day: we cannot control the evil tongues of others but a good life enables us to disregard them. therefore, i've decided to bai PRINCiSS wei shi, then she can teach me all the motivational things! yaye! :)


alright, so i'm going to lead a queen's life. mini queen equals queenie! :) haha. alright. i earned threethousand neopoints yesterday. how lucky. now my next aim is to get into the hall of fame for sutek's tomb! okay crappp. i'm so childish.


maybe while at the library tomorrow, i'm going to draft up this list of things to do if i land myself in ac or sa or cj or whatever instituition lah.


i've got people really praying hard that i get in ac, so that one; they can see me in ac. two; they do not see me in sa. thankyou alot. then there's this (group of) person, who had this really strong feeling that i'll be seen in cj. alright then. i accept all suanism if they're meant to be. rarrr.


i shall lose more fats. and the plan starts tomorrow.

i've got this nano percent that i might go blind. what if i go blind? i think i will be very sad. i haven't seen the world, i haven't enjoyed enough. and going blind would probably snatch those chances away :(


had bio talk with di-a-na. haha. naaaaaa was super spastic. our convo was like totally messed up with bio names, bio facts and bio what-nots. i was spamming about funorama and how oily and fattening the food my cousin sold to me and she said i am "how skinny chiam".
this is our convo:
me: ay no longer skinny already. AND THE WORD IS NOT SKINNY LAH. I ALSO GOT FATS LORRRRR.
her: like ONE PERCENT FATS NOT ENOUGH LARRR. ahhaha
me: WHERE GOT ONE PERCENT. AT LEAST ONE POINT FIVE LAH.
her: FINEEEE. not much diff. later if u stay in cold country not enuff blubber to keep u warm la. haha.

only then i learnt what's blubber, the amount of fats whales and baby whales have, when i get my choc easter rabbits (which i really only wana look only so don't force me to eat it, na), how i should work it out so that i get products from my photofactory, and how i can get myself in an oven state, and how i can be related to beethoven in some way and how creative names can be created in such a deng way. haha :) now na created two names for me. chiamoven and chiamlackoblubber. argh. i rather want 'jasmine' to be used, hintHINT.


alright so the day continues, and i just rotted at home, again. but i was quite amused by how jiajuan's gonna prepare herself for poly. she's gonna get a new bag, new clothings etc just for poly. and she probably have to change her whole wardrobe or something just to fit in all the new things she's gonna get. hmm. and she said fellow females wear makeup to school too! and the weather being so hot, the mascara will probably get them into this big mess and they probably have to attend lessons with unearthly looks. HAHAHAHAHA. that would be funny. we warned jiajuan not to do such stuff :p


warning. people using bausch&lomb solution, beware. THROW THROW THROW AWAY all your solution. it's harmful but i forgot how to explain myself. but nvm. read the home section of sat's papers. i feel quite ke xi. i've got this brand new bottle and eight pieces of those unused lens. alright nevermind. protect your eyes first!! okay athenabu has two bottles so she's worst off. bleah.


i have babies obsession. die.

i am so bored. kick me.


and i was just thinking about peace's suggestion; crash the arts stream. hmm. BUT AIYA. maybe i should take this period of time to think about my childhood life and take out old photos to rearrange. reminisce the past. okay i don't know how to use 'reminisce' properly.


a chat about childhood games, like mrwolf, aeiou, pepsicola etc. i suddenly miss my childhood alot. like how innocent everyone was so long ago. it was easy to mix around, make friends, form cliques and to even go to school. now it's just so hard. i think sc is the only thing i can't let go. even primary school in sc was so awfully wonderful. how oxymoronic.


if one day i'm going to write a storybook, i'm going to write about my whole ten years in sc. how heartwarming :) :)


i remember in primary school, the recessbell was always a terror. whenever the recessbell rings, it's either happiness or screamsssss. the end of recess always has the most horrific scene. RINGGGGGGGGGGG. and the whole amphi will vibrate. RINGGGGGGGGGGGG. and the primaryones will scream at their top of their lungs while queueing back in lines. i bet this is how we train our screams. from young. and constance reminded me of the redbaskets we were sort of forced to have under our desks. and i remember i always kope the basket from cnyhampers. and poor cnyhampers have to stand on its own, or either that, they have to be dismantled to suit the little jasmine's desire for a nice redbasket.


really thinking back, i love my childhood in sc. it was just simply sweet and memorable :)


i'm dreaming of my childhood, where there was plain care, concern, love, trust and faith in everyone. it was the kind of life i want now. but perhaps it's not gonna happen again. now i yearn for sweet and caring people to be around me but i guess it's just so hard.


peace's words in her blog makes me think of the dark side of jc. is it really gonna change the life of everyone? change their attitude and way of life? change how they see of the world? actually i saw it for myself already, in pj. i saw a different league of people and they showed me how they appeal to a certain group of people and they showed me how superficial anyone can get. i don't understand why people are intensively trying to get into good boots of others. why can't they just be themselves? is there any need for extra attention? are these people counted as attention seekers?


what did our childhood teach us?


are we all troubled in some way or another? i shall be the first to admit. ever since school reopened again this year, i've been troubled for so long. troubled for so many nonsense, spastic and retarded reason. and for the most randomous reason, it was because of rumours flooding people's ears. can't we all just live a simple life like primaryschool? where we're all so innocent to start flooding rumours in other people's ears? where we didn't have so much trouble and problems?


ignore my pessimism.


can i request for a tag from all visitors who've come to read my pathetic sorrowful diary?

xuan finally came online and she said she'll laugh and laugh if juvia appears on tv one day and say, "eh jasmine. you owe me!!!" i think if that day ever comes, i'd just die. but probably not. maybe juvia'd excitedly scream out, "EH JASMINE!! I'M ON TV." haha! i'd rather wait for this day to come. it better not seem as if i owe her cash. gasps.


pretty much in agony, everyone's asking what're my different choices for jae (or is it pae?). i submitted eight choices and last one being pj. ac sa cj nj ac sa jj pj. there! eight choices.


i want to crash nj and see nicole's class and her senior class. and apparently, her senior class has vivian! haha. (ps xuan, do you see this? VIVIAN) alright. so i want to visit nj. and i want to crash ac to have a mini-look. basically, i just wana crash all those jcs which i might get into, to prepare myself of a whole new environment awaiting for me. though i still think crashing is boring and dangerous, but it's worthwhile after all.


yuhsiu thinks she sort of made a wrong choice. i think so too. but after all, it's been done. so hopefully there's another chance for her to amend. goodluck girl :)


argh i'm so bored at home. there's basically nothing to do except decomposing but there's no way i can go back to school without being scolded. how how. argh. so annoying.


apparently pj welcomes crashers to join classes. so people who wants to crash pj, go ahead but find someone else to help. not me cause i don't know when i'm ever going back. ha.


I AM SO BORED. rarrrrrrrr.

i am so tired. funorama is hot and cool :) and i really think i shouldn't go anywhere with my mom. she painfully annoys me alot. she's so insensitive. someone please poke her with a finger.


unfortunately, it rained and the fallen rain added to the humidity.


haunted house at lt6. it wasn't that scary and i really thought it was retarded, though i screamed, like alot. but it was still spastic and they really shouldn't have it at LTs. in case anyone trips and fall to their death. bleah.


where did all my coupons go to? my little cousins and that cousin who gave me alot of garlicbread and this chaotabao bun- some oily and brown bun. zzk.


saw alot of scgirls and other random people. i have a question. is ibpeople included in this funorama as well? so queer.


how i wished i was part of this funorama. i think i will have alot of fun too! like getting high, doing random and mad acts and rubbishy things. okay i mean, i would be very happy everywhere. things like funfairs etc turns me on :) :) :) i hope everyone earned alot and recoup back their profit or whatever it's called.


athena's senior class is kim's class. woohoo. and her guitar pres is in kim's class too. woohoo. how exciting. it's time to do some intro thing soon ;) SA2 is their class. heh.


and athena's tuition cum class friend, andrew, is so scandalous. and i think scandalous is the hot word now. like since i've starting saying this hot word, everyone's saying it now. it kinda annoys me but not that i copyrighted that word. but can i reserve the copyright? :p anyways, i love the word "scandalous". and someone please tell me more scandalous issues in ac! :)


i'm going to type a para just for xuan because she doesn't come online and she deserves to be smacked! ps xuan. can you please not delay your flight any longer? like i've said, we're planning classparty and we need everyone to be there. and classparty is gonna be great because your two dearest classrep, sam and i, are gonna plan something really great. yes? like, don't know lah. anyways, can you please come back earlier? not like first march? argh. and i want you to crash a random jc with me cause you're experienced :) so please come back soon cause school is starting soon. and posting is tentatively coming out on the third march. please please. and xuan, my result is a secret. shh. haha. the next time you come online, and if you see xueyan online too, then you ask her to call me to get me online! zzk.


probably ac is like sc.

i love constance cause she painfully tags my board.
is this alright? i've done something about it! :)


okay, then i have to love everyone who tags without being asked to, right? yaye, especially loyal people who's totally faithful to my little isolated place here. THANKYOU PRINCiSS, peace, scandalous nicole.


nicole is still scandalous. but i expect good news on its wayyy. and she cheated my feelings!!


so i'm still not poisoned yet :) yaye! and this means i can finally leave the house tmr for funorama! woohoo! and i'm trying to convince myself to love ac, or even like it. chances of me getting posted there is like 50-50. and so i must get use to the environment, the people (or the bimbos), the weather, the atmosphere etc. aiya, basically just everything, even the toiletpapers.


get a grip, will you? stop being so 'mu zhong wu ren' and that you're more superior than me. i really wish i don't have to be at a same place with you the whole time. and what the hell lah. you're another one taunting the hell out of me. stop it lah. your presence makes me scared and frightened. i wished i never have to face you again. never.


pretend you don't see that whole para :) i feel better. anyways, i suggest no one buys the new strawberry kitkat. i feel like i just ate chewinggum or related stuff. but of course, if chewinggum suits the tastebuds, then i guess, shoo.. go ahead.


i never see tags by my other hot favourite people.


to be officially known to people, i hereby (vaguely) announce that i'm never going back to school till the new term starts.

questionone: why don't you just quit school?
well. if i quit school, i would lose my student concession! then moving around would be a torture to my pocket. that, is a loser answer i know, but i don't wana go out and keep thinking about bus fares. zzk.

questiontwo: then why don't you go back?
i've already ponned two days. and i bet the moment i go back, the ct will just ask for mc, which i can't produce. and there goes my peaceful remaining days in school.


bleah. i'm such a loser. and sorry to the world for contributing towards global warming.

i feel scandalous. but not as scandalous as nicole. but neverminds. she agreed/promised on several things and there is a pact made. no one, no two, no three? i think there are more. shh.


i think the attempt to try and dig nicole out of her stuff is really torturing, for her. HAHA. she had a milion number of stuff for me to dig out and thus, she is scandalous. more scandalous than me in fact. but still, she's the best! goodluck girl :)


i've been releasing more carbondioxide and methane gas today. decomposing isn't really very healthy. but this is what i do at home, in order to watch my maid. in case she poisons my food, or attempts to kill me with a butcher knief(?), or sets the house on fire, or ran away with all my money. so i didn't have a choice but to stay at home. this is the advantage for ponning school; watch the maid do stuff.


i woke up with four messages and a call. and ohshit. i'm supposed to bake today. damn. i forgot all about it. ps xueyan. how's your baking today? did you bake bakwa again? :P


how early should i reach funorama tmr? i've got probably more than ninety bucks to spend tmr. but i doubt it's ever enough to spend if i were to visit every single one of their stalls. i want cottoncandy.

edited: 6.52pm
i forgot.


on the 16feb06,
HAPPY BELATED BIRTHDAY DELIA! :)

i caught the flu bug on my way home today, on the bus. i bet i caught it while nodding my head on the bus. i bet i did. but i was too sleepy to even take notice. hmm.


i made a great attempt today. i crashed sa :) but i don't know how should i describe the whole experience. in some way or another, i felt like someone was avoiding me. was i wrong being there? did i cause disharmony within one's self?


when i attended morning assembly, i felt so wrong. it seems as if everyone knows that i'm a crasher and i shouldn't be around. alright, maybe all crashers feel the same way too. or maybe i shouldn't even crashed today. i really felt very wronged. now i understand what he means.


i met many people today. made new hi-bye friends. and i only can remember a few due to limited memory space. geok hian, ijtp girl. this tbone guy from ahmad ibrahim. this bobdog guy, whose name is really unknown. basically i only remembered the ijtp girl's name cause we talked for quite some time. she's nice. she's the untypical kind of ij girl. maybe cause she's from tp :) oh! and my brownies were hot cakes! haha. they ran out really fast and i bet my mom would be very pleased to hear that. then after which, she'll ask me to bake somemore so that i can clear the flour in my cupboard. alright. i must attempt to try out new recipes :) and i need guineapigs <3


thankyou liao, for being the ultimate guider. she's really on and high about me going over and why ahhh. hahahaha. then i concluded, together with alyssa that, crashers will be very bored during crashing. but those little crasher helpers would be very high and delighted cause their friends are crashing! i wonder if liao feels that wayy.


i feel so stupid. alyssa made me do this IQ test and i got hundred and twenty. does that mean i'm stupid or what? or we probably got cheated cause alyssa also has that grade. maybe it's the computer system that's tricking us. rarrrr.


twelve fourty-five, the gates were opened promptly. ha. met jeanette at potongpasir mrt and had to roam through the cabins to find her! but she found us first and aiya, we couldn't do the "eh jeanette! what're you doing here!!!" hahaha. so retarded. ohwells. i ate many meals today; at sa, pastamania and rotted at mosburger.


zzk. new word.

i feel so enlightened by the appearing-offline PRINCiSS. i know what she means.


it's time to ask for psychology help. from real experts.


this is the fourth time. and this is how bored i am.


and now i hear my mom nagging bryan away. he must have thrown his bad temper again. how annoying is he. he throws his temper every other day and it gets on everyone's nerves.


next time i shall be more polite when asking for a treat. i promise :)


i love alyssa! :)

edited: 10.51pm
!!!!!!! someone please help me do this! i think it's very fun. do it truthfully okay. i wana know what kind of person i'm known to you :) ty to peace :)

this is my third time blogging for today. perhaps it's because i've been releasing CO2 and methane the whole day.


i have my doubts and queries.


i forgot. my doctor told me to talk to people when i'm stressed up so that pimples and what-nots do not come after me. then i was thinking, who can this person be?


yayayayayadadadada.


i'm feeling so bored that i looked up on lame jokes and other ridiculous things to cheer myself up! haha. and beng and lian jokes are reallu getting me turned on. and i seriously hope xueyan will hurry resume back to her normal job duties so that i would be very much entertained!


xueyan told me not to regret on my choice now that i've already submitted at twelve this morning. but i can't help it but to feel a tinge of sadness. it doesn't seem like anyone's happy for me or anything. or worse, it doesn't seem like i've really made a good decision. everyone has the place they wana be, but not me. i feel so settled anywhere but this time, it's different. i've even considered on going back to pj! that was the most extreme case.


persis makes me cry.


i hope moe makes a really good decision for me, like where my merit wise can get me to. and i hope god, buddha or anyone can really bless me to be in a place where i'm really suited to be in.


i'm sorry to those whom i didn't reply sms to. i just had to be accountable to myself first.

i've realised i've deceived myself. i've lied to myself into thinking that i would be happy everywhere and it doesn't really matter where i'll be or anything. i failed as myself terribly.


about my decision. i will not regret. i've convinced myself that it doesn't really matter where i study at or anything because my ultimate aim are alevels and As. but something inside seem to be telling me that i've made the wrong decision somehow. but still, i will not slap myself in the face and tell myself i should pay another ten bucks for the amendment.


i'm gonna take this mini chance to thank the eon of people who helped me in a way or another for this (freaking) jae. thankyou juvia for the msg. thankyou xueyan peace athenabu eunice gerald jiajuan claras alyssa ashiq yuhsiu constance liao. and practically everyone whom i asked for opinions. i bet i really made a shocking decision. hmm.


okay now i rather not dwell upon my shocking decision and i should be thinking on how i'm gonna do stuff tmr by myself.


i have questions to be answered, but who will or can answer me queries? who, then, will be able to pull me out of this deep pit?


i've ended my life.

i've submitted my choices and i'm finally free from trouble. now i can finally sleep early.


i guess i will be questioned as to why are my choices as such and the reasons to them, are many. basically i've only got two choices, like i've said way back. ac and sa. and the moment i decided on my first choice, i know i'll get many questions posted straight into my face.


i chose ac as first.


i'm really sorry if you expected sa to be my first choice. ps peace: i'm sorry. seriously i really like sa alot and if i were to be fated to be in sa, i will be in sa. but fret not! i'm sure we'll meet up very often still! :) like during both your coming concerts. i promise i'll go support you!! :) and ps liao. okay i know i always shuang yue about crashing sa, but always, there's alot of suddenly appearing problems arising thus the delay. but i've promised to crash on thurs, so i will crash on thurs. and hopefully your dm or vp or p doesn't see this, or else i'm killed :P


first reason; it seems like ac is very like sc alot. from all aspect and everyone tells me this. i can't let go of sc and i know none of us can so perhaps i should go live in the dark shadows of sc, which is ac.


second reason; i want to start a whole new life, making a load of new friends etc. and i don't want to live in the past where i indulge in fantasies and allow myself to engage in immoral rumours. as far as i'm concerned, i want to stay out of rumours' way.


there isn't really a third reason. and i really tried to weigh both schools on even scales. ac vs sa. a cousin each; kim vs shaun. a perc senior each; eunice vs peace. one supporter each; athenabu vs liao. uniform; ac attire vs sa tie. distance; two buses vs one bus. time taken; no jam vs long jam. humanbeings; ac more like sc vs sa fun people. culture; arts vs fun.


i'm tired. i shall continue later when i wake up! -stressfree.

i want to change my email add but simply put in words, i don't know what it shall be. mental block is deservingly terrible for me and i've been like this the whole night, ever since i started talking to clara and had nothing else to say except "haha". i feel so sorry for her cause she had to take in all my problematic moodswings. daaahhhh.


i haven't written any vdays card. i'm super sorry. but i made some stuff and hopefully it'll take over the role of the cards. -paiseh.


oh die. i'm suddenly so hokkien-y and it's gonna go wrong somehow i feel. my mom would prolly tear up my tongue or something before i land myself in trouble by using hokkien.


hot fudge sundae and lamian. i'm dreaming and yearning for those food nowww :(


i feel so lazy by being at home and i realised i can't get anything done. even my jae form. die laaa. i have only one day left. someone please help me.


ohya. i forgot i'm pretty annoyed. i hate to make decisions and having to decide on everything and being the big boss. okay it's cool to be a big boss once in a blue moon, but hello, i'm so sick of it already. sick of deciding everything and sick of indecisive people. i'm not pinpointing to anyone, i swear. but it's just that i feel it's really annoying. sometimes i just wonder why, why people can't be more decisive like me? okay i admit in some terms i'm very indecisive, but argh. indecisive people are annoying. and i am anoying. so that makes me an indecisive person. freak.

HAPPY VALENTINE'S DAY! <3 <3


well. i am still in this really huge dilemma and stress. i have two choices ahead of me. either ac or sa. and xueyan thinks that i should choose sa cause the keys are next to each other. how ridigculous! haha. ohwells. i had this minor vote and seems like majority picked sa for me. and even my og people, the twin claras! ohgosh. i duno what should my decision be.


seriously i don't wana disappoint abu cause i know she really want me to be there, so that she can save sms and phonebill. but basically that's not the point. bleah. i really don't know where.


nicole is applying to rj! yaye. i love her. now i have excuses to meet up with her. hahaha. really, i think rj's uniform is really nice and since i can't make it there, nicole will help me fulfil my wish <3nicole :)


so who's gona give me more advice on which school to choose? and i think the other day, deb also told me sa suits me more. why ah? do i really have the sa look or what? dilemma. but i know there'll be some form of disputes if i really go to sa and perhaps more rumours than before. but i really don't want that to happen.


i'm going to start my whole life all over again. back to scratch! and that is to make new friends and self intro myself to all past and present friends again! yaye. new jasmine. how cool :)


oh! nicole said i was unique just now. she's so cute that i feel like pinching and poking her all the timeeeee. she's so adorable that i must poke her at least once a day and kick her once a week. oh! she promised to tagg but she didn't. hehhhhh. i owe her boxesss nowww. ooooh. (!!!)


okay i'm being so random that i'm so annoyed and irritated by myself. okay and i promise i won't tell anyone not to stalk us anymore. so embarrassing and the word was spreaded some more, like some butter or margarine. damn.

oh damn. i forgot to write vdays cards!

my secret date for valentines. i guess, you don't have to guess anymore. why do assumptions arise when people don't get the answers they wished to hear or why does accusation even occur when no such event happened? i really hate it.


i'm making this known, whether or not there're teachers reading this, or troublemakers spreading this. i'm crashing ac soon. and it's only for the sake of abu and kim and myself. and if i ever walk into sa again, it's for my own sake. and i promised liao i would go crash sa, so i therefore have to keep my promise.


basically i'm not in need of finding a guy to spend my valentines because there're more people out there worthy of my time and effort. and i really love them so.


can i ask a favour? please shut up and care about your own nonsense. and stop being annoying, irritating, retarded, spastic and everything bad. i really don't see a point in digging out my past and present. get lost. im annoyed by you.


i planned my first and perhaps last og outing for the og. and it worked out after all, though it was pretty sian and boring. but overall okay, i guess? and i realised i like my og people. and perhaps, who knows, i might stay in pj cause of these people? nah. majority are leaving. but seriously, who believes i like my og? but i really like them.





this is part of my og. they're all nice people, really. and i'm beginning to like them more :) i thought, the only problem was, the guys walk too slow as compared to the girls. and the guys talk among themselves. i think, they ought to be boxed and kicked! muahahaha. i like them! :)

actually i typed an entry earlier on. and i really hate my screwed internet. like how it always dc by itself, and that was how the previous entry was gone.


and again, i just went to watch 'i not stupid too'. how retarded and mentally ill i must have been. i watched it twice already and the same senario happened, just that it was decreased in number. the first, five times. the second, three times (of tears). i must have been in a daze when i agreed to watch it the second time.


basically i was pulled out of bed by idiot xueyan to drag me to work with her as some stupid flyer distributor. how annoying. i finally saw how annoying and idiotic certain singaporeans are and it was plainly something that no distributor would like that to happen. how annoying. there were many kind souls, really. and out of which, there was this really nice old woman. she took one from xueyan and she came up to me, asking for one too! omg. she's so cute :) it's really heartwarming to see such people existing, rather than annoying people like some cacausian boy i met. he was like freaking annoying (no offence). i asked his friend and not him and he replied me in this irritating tone. "i don't want it. please don't give me. go away" or something as such. but my point is that, i didn't ask him. ohgod. how annoying.


distributing flyers is hard work. and to the extent that even your own friends do not help you, is worse. i met a couple of friends and how nice they were. either they saw me and pretended not to, or they simply walk away and not wanting to walk back when i begged them to. what is my point? i need to get rid of those flyers without using my own hand, in case we were being watched. but of course, there were really nice friends like cindy athena sweelin wanyi and many other scgirls. some scgirls were really extraordinary nice. i just went up to them, saying i know they're scgirls and ask them if they were willing to help me get rid of those. yaye. scgirls rock to the core. but of course, there were exceptions which was really "disgracing" but ohwells. scgirls rock. especially scgs class of twenty-o-five.


from this episode of flyers distributing, i'm never gona agree to any flyers distributing thing again. and i'm not gona answer hoxueyan's phone call at ten fourty to get me to go down to orchard at twelve. rahhhh.


after release of results, i realised i've been neglecting the name of the school i was in, before the results. basically, it's not that it's not enjoyable there. but it's what my friends from that school say, the school doesn't suit me. ohwells. i was in pioneer jc. the jc, which mrjeow declares, that makes bombs. "whatever". and annoying mrjeow keeps remembering and thinking wrongly; his memory of the school i'm in is millenia and i always have to shrill and say NO. ah. okay i have to clarify. it's not that mi is not good, but it's just that i don't belong there so cannot anyhow say i'm part of that institute. so insulting to the institute, mrjeowwww. hahahahahaha.


okay basically i would recommend pj to people who think you need more freedom. it's quite slack over there and the days end at latest three plus i think. not really sure. but really, it's quite fun, considering the fact that i ponned quite a number of days. and yepp, it's a fun school :) but one thing is, i really duno what's the cut off for pj. twenty was what i had and i could be admitted into pj. i was shocked :X


ohwells. the days of twenty pointer has finally ended. i am really glad. and i feel really really really blessed :) :) :)

recapping on what msheng said to us, i feel so loved and blessed. why are scgirls always so blessed with fortune, love and happiness? i really think we rock to the core.


scgs is back to band one. and we've achieved the best results in the last ten years, according to msheng. it's this supreme happiness that no words can actually describe my feeling now.


if anyone wants me to recap what happened on friday the 10th of feb, i'll be gladly to do so. it's just so remarkable. like how the whole cohort cheered so loudly. and i'm really happy though i landed both my hands in a sore and swelling state. it's the spirit that was remarkable and i really experienced what all my seniors felt when it was their time.


and i passed my higher chinese. i'm just so happy about that fact, i cried like terribly. i cried when msheng started speaking. i cried when i heard my whole class did well.


but i think my mom was more ridiculous. she cried when she saw me, when i haven't even looked at the results and the score. she cried, asking me if i was alright when i haven't looked at it. i thought, at that moment, why is my mom so strange? haha. and she admitted she was weird too.


went out with abu liao sweelin wanyi. the five of us went to pizzahut and started oogling at the menu. and when the food arrive, we started to feel restless and full. bleah. but it was good having fun, slapping abu, taking a picture photo and laughing at the most random thing. but i think i have to apologize though i was bluffed. sorry and yes, you lied to me. omg. you annoying strange thing.


though it was just a short three hours thing, i think we all got the blessings and congratulations from the rest :) and as we bid farewell to sweelin and wanyi, abu liao and i continued to loiter around ps, waiting for random people to come pay us a visit. oh wells. they didnt make it on time in the end and seriously, i'm not avoiding anyone. i swear.


i'm going to predict that sc is gona get like at least one day off due to our terrific results from twenty-o-five. and it's really thanks to us. but of course, i hope it won't be soon cause i won't be in the new jc yet and i really want juniors to crashhhh. haha. i know my juniors are inspired and i know they will all do well. please thank us when you really get your day off! :)


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only now i feel the real intensity and anxiety. omg.


just an hour or so ago, i was feeling bored. it was unusual i thought because just when everyone's feeling all so nervous, scared and everything else, i was just feeling bored and just got nothing to do. and now, the tables are turned around.


can someone please tell me if i'm sane?


i rather not think of how well or badly i'd do. or rather, i wish to think tmr's trip back to school would be a reunion of the scgs cohort 2005. scgs class of 2005. i think that is actully more like the highlight of the whole going-back-to-school thing. i miss seeing my pretty class, fourcourage05 and my dearest teachers and everyone else. i miss those who i didn't get to meet when i went back on those seven days. like, mslim. i bet im going back for the wrong reasons again.


not saying that the release is not important, but to me, i think meeting up with everyone is more important. i doubt i'll be able to sleep anyways, so i'll take the chance to crap stuff out.


i cannot seem to blog about my movie watching trip today. and why is that so? argh.


till then, i guess i'll still be damn stressed. pimples. bye.

it's quite queer and suspicious pre-results syndrome has happened to me.


i'm suffering from pre-results syndrome.


yesterday when i came home from school, i was super high. i was skipping all the way, from the busstop to my home. how strange is that. i was never like this and it has to happen four days before collection of results.


and today, i'm feeling pissed and irritable. not like anyone offended me or anything. but it just occurred to me. how strange.


well. maybe i'm just pms-ing. but i doubt it anyways.


someone told me the plan. i guess it's a good one. well. just take a day off from school on friday and enjoy the morning together. receive my sms invitation and you're in it.


well. i ponned pe today but not like i have to. but uh huh. the event just occurred. and from economics point-of-view, the event of ponning has resulted in an opportunity cost and a choice. the opportunity cost is the chance of getting tanner under the extreme hot sun. and the choice is to pon or not to pon :) i'm getting a hang of it, i think. but i'll be dropping that beautiful subject soon. bless me.


perhaps another plan. to go out in the evening or afternoon after our extreme torture. BLEAH. i do not deserve the right to think about this now :(

okay, i broke the rules. im gona talk about it again :(


well. basically, this morning we had jae briefing by the vp and it was rather enjoyable, sad to say. but i guess this school's rather nice to the students. here goes..


there won't be lessons at all during the whole jae registration period! :D


maybe this is the only thing i like about this school- they're quite slack.


anyways, i was feeling really scared this morning. like how nearby the release is. but now, i'm really scared. sam just told me the news. the news. and i bet everyone's waiting for the moment. and apparently, mrs quek's gona ask us to pass relay message to everyone else. so i guess, probably it's not that day. i pray i pray, i pray very hard. thanks sam, my partner-in-action :p


i feel the intensity. i feel like bursting. though i really want the results back, but there's this part of me who doesn't want it back at all. getting it back means choosing all over again. getting it back means adapting a whole new routine. getting it back means there's no turning back. i'm beginning to feel retarded and spastic. i guess, if it's not tmr, it'll be tmr tmr or tmr tmr tmr or tmr tmr tmr tmr. i'm just being retarded.


tell me it isn't so.

updated; 5:06pm:

ohwells. i forgot. peace tagged me and i've gotta see her blog for details. and alas! i've gotta do this perfect lover thing. blablablah. basically eight characteristics of my perfect lover (how nice. coincides with valentine's day!) and tag eight people to join this (lame) game and tag these people's boards. if unfortunately tagged the second time, ignore.


ooh hoo, sex: male or female. actually sometimes females are sooooooo much nicer than annoying males. yada. no offence!


first good; sensitive and gentleman. due to the fact that i'm easily stressed, flushed and angered, this person must know that when's the time to talk or stay quiet. and basically, i don't need someone to open doors for me or anything. just have to be nice, i guess :)


second good; chatty and outspoken. i dont want to talk all the time, though im quite a chatterbox (which isn't the point here). so the person has to talk and talk and talk when i'm not talking. but control. too much isn't good ;)


third good; talented in some way or another. for eg, can cook, musically incline etc. the person can whip up foodstuff in case i get too hungry, which is something very frequent and can cheer me up or entertain me when i'm bored with musical talents :)


fourth good; patient and tolerant. like i've said, bad temper is no good. but it's something that is uncontrollable.


fifth good; hates smoking. basically smoking is very harmful and i don't really wana end up dying of lung cancer cause i was a passive smoker (i think it's called passive. hmm)


sixth good; well mannered and civilized. needless to elaborate, though it's somewhat the same point as gentleman.


seven good; sweet and charming. aww :)


eight good; righteous and caring.


basically, these points are like quite straightforward i guess. and i don't know how come i'm picked to do this, huh peace? and anyways, it's quite fun to think about how this lover will turn out and maybe he/she will turn out to be a machine. bleah. like so comic. oh wells. i shall now think about who to tag. heh heh.


athena bu, constance, liao, rach perc, tamago, sweelin, wanyi, xuan.


i'm super sorry for choosing these people and it can be seen that they're all sc girls. and this shows to prove that girls rule the world. and guys don't usually own a nice blog. so ohwells.

basically i had fun today and yesterday.


friday; it was such an exciting day. morning i tried going to school by attempting to board the bus early. but alas! as i walked out of my estate, the bus just stride past me. how sad. and it was simply impossible to wait for another one cause i would just end up very late. so i tried hailing for a cab and freak. one cab stopped and ask. so i told him two destination, the first one was okay for him but that wasn't the point. the ultimate destination was absolutely "out of bounds" or something. he just gave me a straight no. so blahblahblah. i managed to reach school in about ten++mins? it was quite incredible though the car sped and sped all the way to school. phew. late for the second time would mean, detention.


anyways, so the school had open house, which was quite retarded i thought. i mean, who would have open house in the beginning of the year? oh wells. the response, i thought was quite ok, so-so. then the atmosphere, ahem, was disastrous, dead. anyways, i just left the open house, in other words, people might just say pon. oh wells. but anyways, i pon for a good reason. i was told to go back to sc for band cause new juniors are here! woohoo! :)


basically when i reach sc, i walked past the band room, but it was kinda packed with people so i didnt go in. went to canteen, reunited with three other sc girls, then became four. abuuu sweegeok sweelin wanyi. well, we just talked and talked, crap and crap. then just when i know it, the juniors have all gone home. how sad. i went back for them and they just left :(


let's just cut the long story short.


met mr jeow. initially intention was to laugh at him for 30mins but end up, i think it was less than 10mins. how sad. he was super cornified, spasticated, retarded and lamo. he's everything that anyone can find should be barred from good, sane students like us. hahah :) well but i think everyone would just agree that he was good company, uh huh. he provided lame, funny entertainment for us the whole night. and he even treated us to crystal jade! actually, he still owe us many treats, so we shall go back again on friday! haha :D he would love to see us again, uh huh. initially we were supposed to go far east sushi teh to eat. and when we were walking, i told mr jeow.
me: i think sushi teh closed down you know.
him: choi!!
then he walked way ahead of us to check it out and alas! it was really closed down. muahahaha. i told him so, but he didnt wana believe me. where got such teacher onee. tsk. and so we proceeded to crystal jade and spent nearly seventy bucks. thankyou mr jeow! :) :) :)


okay back to school first. anyways, so we met up with ms goh too! and she was excited to see me, i bet. the moment she saw me, she had that omg look on her face. how cute. hahahaha. i bet she always feel that i am full of surprises! hahahaha :) okay so i asked ms goh,
me: ms goh, did you miss me?
her: (evil laughter)
me: ms goh, do you know how many times i've come back already?
her: i know, seven.
me: HOW YOU KNOW!!!!?!! omg.
her: of course.
ms goh is just so lame. anyways, i already knew she was tipped off before she said seven. and currently, i hold the highest record of going back to sc since year 2006 started. and that is, other than teachers and current students of scgs. anyways, ms goh just wishes i don't go back so often. BUT TOO BAD!! i'll be going back next week again! to collect results. heh.


anyways, i just had a remarkable day with everyone yesterday.


today; my mom decided to have some improntu open house for my house. okay, it's not really improntu but she didn't confirm it, so yepp. so i last minute asked some of them to come. and i hope they all had fun :) i had fun, so obviously i hope that they had fun too! :) oh wells. anyways, so i helped cooking and it was fun! haha. i hope they do not get diahorrea or something :X


oh! i bet i didn't mention somehow. that day my neighbour room had a HUGE lizard. and my elder brother is so niang! omg. he was so afraid of that lizard and end up, we had to wake my maid up to catch the lizard. so useless. and i got scolded for screaming. thanks alot. boo.

i bet this is the last entry im gona talk about the release of olevel results.

simply said, i am pretty neutral about it. and just because i said i was neutral about it, i was doubted for my own words. why can't i be neutral about it? strange people.

basically i see no point in flustering in agony of what's already passed. no wrong being about it but the results doesn't really decide the fate of my own life.

okay maybe im just abit scared; scared that i will see the same results as prelims; scared that i'll fall as badly as prelims. but other than that, it's really still neutral about it.

oh wells.


anyways, ive decided to heed your precious advice about who my world shall include and everything; people worthy of time and effort :) and also, i've learned that certain names actually belongs to a certain religion. and i shan't quote an example as to clear my name :)


i've earned back my dignity. and i promise i'll try not to suan anyone until it's to the extend that, it's really needed. be glad :)

i was actually in a pretty dull mood until i saw and read mr jeow's sms. omg he is just so spasticated!!!! hahaha. he created a blog for his baby ethan and actually blog for his baby. oh my goodness. and when i read it, it was just so mr jeow. like how lame and spasticated when we see him in school. omg. im laughing until im having a tummyache. help. HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA. and this is just 1/100000th of how much im laughing. haha.

and my mom thinks that im mad because im laughing so much until she thinks that my neighbour would come and complain against me. hmm.

well. i made some more resolutions for myself while laughing hysterically.
1; laugh as often as possible.
2; ignore all those people who doesnt deserve my attention.
3; love my friends who love me as much.
4; write my diary on a daily basis.
5; shout and scream as little as possible. and
6; try not to offend anyone :)

i love this new layout. it's just so hip and funky. yaye.

oh yes. i still believe that kind intentions are always backfired. but still, i've decided to lend my chinese farmer cousin our vid cam and even teach him how to operate it and sponsor him a tape. hmm.

i just re-read ethan's blog and i wana cry. haha. i realised mr jeow's just amusing himself, like how he speaks in the voice of ethan and trying to act young and baby-ish but can't. and he's very proud of his son that he has to help his son set up this blog in order for his son to voice out "his" views. how ironic. but i guess he really love his son alot till he's practically self amusing himself. why can't he name the site, jamin jeow's site? haha. i think that would be more appropriate. and anyways, i wonder what will my reaction be when i see him tomorrow. i hope i don't end up bursting in more laughter. HAHAHA :D

this is something objective and perceptive. though sometimes i do that, but it's always lag but will eventually reply that kinda thing. i'm refering to the use of short message service (sms; which i think that's the long form).

okay basically, why do people use sms-es? to either get a reply or send a certain sort of info. and why do people not reply smses? because one, save msg. two, lag badly. three, heck it. four, cannot be bothered. five, why even waste a msg on you. and six, rather spend it on someone more worth it than you. bleah. i hate all the reasons im forced to give but i guess, this is the real world out there. everyone thinks in a different light and you do not mean as much as the others mean to you. perhaps then, those people aren't really worth time and effort to remember and even give credits to.

kind intentions, i realised, are always backfired.

and sometimes, i guess my phone's abit faulty and all, i'm not sure if people actually get my messages or replies. and it gets me on when i don't get a reply or anything. i mean i don't mind not getting a reply but it gets me on cause each time this happens, it increases the probability of me sending my phone for a repair. it sucks.

it pays nothing to be nice. sucks.

ps xuan: hey you pig. it's not my fault you can't see this nice long entries! it's your comp setting!! haha. you must re copy the whole thing and paste it somewhere i guess. so, DO IT. anyways, why're you so lazy to come back ah? can you just come back soon? so that we can go for high tea soon? and we'll probably be suffering when we go back to sc, and YOU, in taiwan enjoying random madness. COME BACK LAH.

friday; i think i love friday alot. friday the 27th. it was such an enjoyable evening together with people who share the same bond and connection as you. it was a remarkable experience with everyone that evening and i really love it. the amount of laughter we had was tremendous and it's never gona come back in the next week or so. i really miss the times we had. and all those laughter. there were the eight of us, enjoying our cups of refilled chinese tea and xiao long bao and la mian. we all gathered at crystal jade, some place where i'll remember for life. all the forfeits, mocking of a certain person (sorry abt the mockery i guess but i guess we're all just very sadistic), murderer game etc. even laughing over and over again over the same joke. i would love to have such a time again. love you girls. athena-bu constance-cong diana-na jessalynn sweelin-sweelan wanyi and weiting-tang. everyone of you contributed to the wonderful moments i had that evening. i love you girls :)

saturday; diana, we'll miss you loads. and we'll all wait for you to come back in june. and you better hurry bring the yellow juicy banana over! :) well. those little kids were annoying. they forced me to hug diana and countdown to the moment when i start tearing. i dread that moment. but if hugging means something, i guess a few drops of tears wouldn't be wasted after all. after sending diana off, athena and i rushed for the freaking mrt which we were rather thankful after all. we ran and ran but the others didn't. and we caught up the train! haha. and we were laughing at the shrugging tamago cause the train door closed on her! hahaha. and okay, so people who didnt caught up with the mighty us were, tang and tamago and two other random people, kenneth and yingda? heck it. they were just extra-ded. anyways, running after the train didnt meant anything. i met up with tamago at the bus interchange after all. and it was pretty retarded cause i was supposedly taking with everyone else cause tamago was going where i was supposed to go! bleah. but running was good exercise. i havent run with slippers for a long time and it was an experience too. and i bet it was also, for the people who were freaking near me cause my slippers went piak-piak-piak. hahaha :P anyways, rushed home for reunion steamboat and had sore throat after that. it's really funny like how i really equate steamboat to sore throat. oh wells.

sunday; first day of chinese new year. started with a big bang when my dad gave his share of the ang bao. yaye. and then the day became very hot and stuffy. but it was alright. hopping from houses to houses, eating and drinking, yada yada. now i feel really fat. but surprisingly, i lost weight. like a few hundred grams only lah. oh. but thats like an improvement, i hope so.

oh. and im having some fake house warming thing, which in actual fact means just-feel-free-to-come-and-eat-alot session at my house, obviously on sat. and i guess everyone's invited cause it's more like, free food, free entertainment and free time to make new old and young friends! haha. in actual fact, they're just my cousins but hey, more like, i've got loads of uncles and aunties and uh huh. etc etc. oh wells. ask me for details. all're invited i guess. yada :)

i realised ive been too lazy these days to even blog about friday, saturday and everything. or even to wake up to get ready for visitors to come. lazy bum.

another day perhaps.

two hectic days of marketing at supermarkets, getting all sorts of new year goodies. this year we're pretty late and we spent more than 300bucks already. that is sad to say.

midnight shopping, done. fishmarket shopping undone. perhaps i'll go later with them to get fish and other fishy meat. hmm. sounds fishy.

oh wells. i admit to the world. i am scandalous. but. at least i self proclaim first. which is better than people denying the fact and end up very scandalous. trunks. yeah man.

i am scandalous. jasmine is scandalous. sue me.

we will reunite tomorrow at our beloved sc. and make history by koping seats for us to sit when others, who came back years back, do not even get a space to stand. HAHA. we rock the world.

and i must say, i had my day.

i forgot to mention. yesterday i went surveying at chinatown and alas! my mom spent a wholesome cash of $160 on bak kwa. and today, we just received bak kwa. the news reported this bak kwa store and it seems like this brand of bak kwa is pretty famous and i simply do not know what's the reason behind this whole bak kwa thing.

okay. i was just reminded that valentine's coming and i should do something for my valentine. haha :) perhaps it's time to research on things to get for my valentine and spend a faithful and lovely day with my valentine. ooh. so exciting.

okay, maybe people will pangseh me on valentine's day and so maybe i'll end up without a valentine on valentines day. that will be a sad case, i would say.

i hope that will not happen :)

i am a pirate and. i steal.

OH NO. I AM SO FREAKED OUT NOW. and i'm serious about it. help. i don't wana believe those rumours and it seriously can't be true. someone please certify it asap. help.

i'm feeling this tremor that i'm after all not that lucky. why should it even be us that got it? why.

why do we get ourselves into this poo and do whatever extra things that are so not needed? like doing projects, projects and more projects. it's getting retarded like how much we're doing when we're not even gona stay there. to us, it's not worth it. so we aren't gona give a damn about all those.

relay system for fourcourage05 started. anyone not get it, look for me :) we're so gona have a great time on friday! i am looking forward to friday. yaye :)

i'm starting to think that people are born with psychic skills. or rather, i will say good analytic skills. okay just that some people are born with a minimum amount of such and others, maximum.

it also scares me, like how people make use of such skills to think of impossible reasons to deceive themselves into thinking that somethings actually exist and that they've gotta prevent it before something bad happens. well. they always say 'prevention is better than cure' what.

ps xueyan. i'm missing how much fun we used to have last year. like how we imitated those cabs and calciums. i was just doing that the other day and i realised how much fun it was. hao huai nian o.

well. on a happy, perhaps to others, sad, note, olevel results are gona be out really soon. like, in another three weeks? i've heard about a certain rumour that happens every year, like "oh. if you receive some (stupid) brochure, that means you've got some fifteen points and more?" how retarded. i choose to not believe such rumours exist. don't scare me.

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i hate to admit it. but yes, i am gaining weight! fats fats fats! lose them! arghhh.

i was actually feeling guilty over the fact that i rotted at home then after looking at my chaotic timetable, i regretted so. i mean, bleah, after trying to survive in school and quickly rush to somewhere else at 1230 sharp, now i've got to adapt to school life ending at late six and i really hate it. can't they end everyday at the same time? even sc's not that late and we were having lecture-tutorial system too! boo you.

i have two meals a day, recess at like breakfast time and lunch at nonsense time. well. i can have lunch for one-and-a-half hours and hell, after lunch i've got geog. omg. i really hate the timetable. who needs to have lunch for one-and-a-half hours. darn ass.

i had an enjoyable day today, thankyou. i havent had fun for a long long time. bleah. though it was just a short while. hmm.

moe just sent me this teaching brochure thing, which i think everyone would also have. hohoho. like freak. who wants to hire a newly breed teacher of age only eighteen? i doubt any school would be senseless to do that.

band pracs are on wed and fri. and so sorry cause i haven't been to any yet. not really in the mood now cause school to me really sucks. like cirriculum and everything. and yes, timetable. oh man. the only exciting thing that i'm looking forward to now, isn't chinese new year. it's probably gona be weekends and more weekends.

please don't ask me what would happen if i were to continue to stay in this school. i will go bonkers.

well. i suddenly feel rather guilty for staying at home to rot. but however so, i did try and pack my cupboard which is pretty much in a huge mess with magazines way way back, like in twenty-o-one. thats how sentimental i am.

i finally met my class 06s10 yesterday when i went back to school specially for the civics tutorial lesson. they're a nice bunch of people with a werid ratio of 2:1 females to male. my class is twenty-four strong.

i realised i actually get along with more mature people (like the aged, for eg the seven of them from fourcourage05). but i don't feel very much mature in the way i do stuff etc. perhaps it's my thinking that i cannot stand certain lamity among lame people that makes me stand out. but, i rather not know what the real reason is.

yesterday after alighting from the bus, i saw two primary school sc girls. they were so cute and it really made my day. perhaps seeing familiar sc beings around makes me feel really comforted and warm. oh how i wish i really don't have to leave sc.

anyways, i will really attempt to like my class and everything about school now. but hell, i've got the new timetable which i really don't wana accept. why can't we just have lectures all the way till results are out? i think that works better for everyone who doesn't really like the school as much as the others. (i am counting down to that day. about a month)

good natured people go to heaven, evil natured people go to hell. and we are the people who lives in between heaven and hell. that makes us not good nor evil.

shall we have an og outing soon? like some bbq or something? i volunteer my house! :)

this is from liao's blog.

a total eunuch.

how spastic can it be?

You Are 40% Boyish and 60% Girlish

You are pretty evenly split down the middle - a total eunuch. Okay, kidding about the eunuch part. But you do get along with both sexes. You reject traditional gender roles. However, you don't actively fight them. You're just you. You don't try to be what people expect you to be.

i've decided to write down some reflections or resolutions. it's pretty lagged, like how after thirteen days i've decided to make some form of list to wake myself up. anyways,...

jasmine's reflections on life:
(1) i've realised i've been too demanding over my friends and i shall scrap that cause they're nice people and i really miss them sooo. (2) i will love my friends more than before. i will love my abu more because she's my greatest abu ever and i will never ever neglect her in any way or another. i will give her all the time i can spare and remember her for life. ps: i really wonder how come we're so close. despite being in the same class as juvia for seven years, we're still quibbling and screaming and shouting at each other. and for us, it's only a year. oh my. i really lovelovelove us. okayyy, there's only special recognition cause there're like so many eon friends out there. and so, the list goes on. as long as you deserve my love, i will love you! :) :) :) (3) forget the hate. we shall all start anew. i've forgotten when's the last time i hated someone, perhaps not too long ago. but now, it's time to give the hatred up. and i promise not to throw tantrum and shrill till i lose my voice again. i promise. (4) make plenty of new friends. and if anyone thinks that their friends are worth a friend, you can recommend them to me! :) (5) i thought i was creating too much trouble for myself when i bothered myself with all that i can. like helping people solve their problems etc. it was such a chore and sometimes i think of their problem more than mine. the other time i read peace's blog and she quoted from yunru, "im just so tired of being helpful, not that i was very much in the first place." come to think about it, this statement is definitely not an understatement. there're really some things which i did, i really regretted it. but no point brooding over spilled milk and just wait for cows to produce more! (yesyes, lame). bleah. i watched a doctor show and the chatty doctor said, he not only wana treat people of their illnesses. but also treat them to be better. that is to care for them, help them and change their lifestyles. helping people, ... is not easy. (6) save money. i exploded my bills this month in just one week before the "deadline". and this time is really my deadline. and i shall really save loads of money so that i can go on a bagpack tour. i really want. bleah.

i think six is so far what i can think of. i will attempt to increase it min ten.

someone reminded me. today is friday the thirteenth. congratulations.

RESOLUTIONS.
love my class 06s10 and be enthu and hyper and mad. most importantly, be myself. be the jasmine that is wellknown in sc. be the jasmine that everyone identifies as. be the jasmine that everyone is familiar with. be myself. i really miss myself. and perhaps no one will miss their own selves other than me. but, i really miss myself. argh :(

i concluded that archery will give me muscles and i really don't want muscles cause they look really weird and im so bony (according to eon of people) and muscles do not go well with bony beings. so no archery for me, i told yuhsiu. i repeat. no archery

darn ass. im bothering myself with loads of spastic problems again. i don't want. i really don't want. can y'all just leave me around with the fools and talks and rumours and rubbish? please? please just listen to the angelic side of you and please, stop it. i really have no intentions of getting myself into the q&a all over again. i find the lagging tortuous and tormenting. spare the little human health of mine. really. get a grip, pleassssse.

i just decided to blog again after conversing with like a million people.

my choice of cca: (hahah. this is a funny topic)
yuhsiu and i were collaborating on what cca to join. it's not that i don't wana re-join band. seriously band has brought many nice memories to me and personally i will join band again. but, not only nice, wonderful memories. there're non-memorable ones too. anywayyyyys.
so yes, there is archery in not-my school and we intended to join, just like two hours ago. HAHA. okayy, then we had a list of three ccas. and obviously basketball is totally out of the world cause i cant play basketball and i only can rar-rarr for basketball. hmm. ok so it's archery, bowling and band. whee. but. apparently, archery has a full list already so most probably we both wouldn't get a chance. so bleah. bowling and band. we're depending on it now. hahaha.

oooh. i feel comforted. xueyan just comforted me with a piece of good news. the pet shop at bpp has renovated. yaye! i shall make a trip down. they sell like rabbits, hamsters and rats. omg rats. eww. i can't stand their long tails.

i still have perky and gribbles's cage with me. and their food. and i really miss them so :(

sometimes i wonder, do you ever trust me? perhaps i don't deserve as much trust as anyone else. i don't understand the current situation at all. so what am i supposed to react? violently or what? blah.

i saw you though i was half blind. i saw everything, everything that perhaps i couldn't see when i had perfect eyesight.

school is getting okay if anyone wants to know. im posted to some random class with no one i know cause im totally separated from my og. this is terrible cause i doubt i'll ever get the chance to bond with my class if i go c_______ somewhere else.

i would like to tell a random story of random events of random people.

today is such a random day, with random lectures for me. random thursday today is one day im gona remember. i survived through three random boring lectures and this is randomly tough. well. but eventually i had a randomly high time together with my dear old random friends on this random cold day.

i'm quite tired to continue on this random journey. and maybe i should stop being random for a moment.

i've discovered something during this whole start-of-school thing. i really havent been myself and, i will be myself from now on. i will i will. i will not avoid anymore human beings and i will be very friendly and mad (as usual). i will succeed. yaye x)

i went to peace's diary and i saw this quiz. omg.

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oooh. i am a well known crasher. i am a part time crasher. i didnt pon school to crash other school. i just dropped by after school. to show support for peace. [hey peace, i think you did a great job on the timps! really!! :)]

i went there and everyone knew immediately i was a crasher. how sucky a crasher am i. but it's probably one of the most exciting job there is. being crasher is fun. but being well-known crasher is bad and embarrassing. but but but stillll. crashing is fun.

i abide to the school rules today. econs lecture started at eight-thirty ended at nine sharp. we were chased from classroom to lecture theatre (Lt) due to the hot demand of students taking that combi that im taking. mce and geog. woohoo. this combi sucks. we only had half an hour of lesson and thats it for the day. so i began rotting in all parts of the school from nine sharp to twelve-thirty sharp. ahhh. i hate rotting. waste of time.

anyways, so after school, i went back to sc to eat meepok! woots! i miss the meepok so much and im craving for it again. maybe i'll go back tmr to eat again. yumyum :)

after meepoking, we ventured towards that direction towards that school. it wasn't my first time there but this time, it is filled with million of people. out of which, i greatly recognized a few but am rather reluctant to name namesss. hwell well. sc girls rock the world! :)

wherever i walk, there're bound to be people recognizing that im a crasher. bah. it was bad. but obviously i knew what the reason was. when i walked around Lt two, everyone knew i was a crasher. blah. so obvious. but i went to purely support peace. yesyes? :)

i am so tired. perhaps the crasher shall take some time to think of her crashing plans. watch for her! :D

campfire yesterday marked the end of orientation-one 2006. and the next orientation will be planned by the next batch of student councilors. nah. i don't have the guts to do it.

i had simply great time at campfire, laughing and cheering away. perhaps that was the only time i enjoyed going to the school, which i don't call mine.

i am pretty thankful that i've got such a wonderful timetable. my days end at latest 12.30 everyday. and on weds, i only have one lecture, which ends at 9.30. but to abide to school rules, i have to stay in school till 12.30 everyday before i can officially be dismissed. this is disgusting.

i had a strange dream this morning. i dreamt that i went back to sc (!! yaye!!) for random reasons. and then i became very hungry. so i went to "queue" for meepok (but there wasn't any queue). meepok uncle had like alot alot alot of mee and there's like no one